long drives

I find pleasure in late night drives.

No one else except me in the driving seat.

Of course, someone else might be missing ;)

heh

oh well =P

So it's me and my music instead.

Cruising down the highway with my favorite songs playing,

singing loudly along with the lyrics.

And when certain slow songs are played, my mind will go into deep thought.

I dig that!

Oh, and the windows will be winded down,

to allow the cool night breeze to saturate the interior creating a relaxing atmosphere.

wooooooooo....

Absolutely perfecto!

Anyway,

I would feel really really good after that

Great way to loosen and de-stress myself.

So anyone wanna join me on this "adventure" ? haaaa. jokeeee.

Summer Stars

We will shine like stars in the summer night.

We will shine like stars, it will be alright.

One heart, One heart, One heart.

Happiness?

Happiness.

What's the real definition of happiness?

For me at least.

Is it having all the desired material possessions in the world?

Is it drinking all my sorrows away every night in a pub?

Is it womanizing?

Is it clubbing?

No, I don't want any of those "happiness".

So what do I really really really want to experience true happiness?

Simple, live out my God given dream with no distractions!

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Well, that's my godly want but how about my own personal want?

I think it is to love and to be loved in return.

Isn't that something we all yearn for?

Don't ya all agree?

Not that I'm lacking in love or anything...

But there're different kinds of love in which we all need.

Such as Father's love, family love, friends love and etc etc etc.

And each kind of love can only be filled by a certain group of people or by an individual.

If one particular area of love is not filled, we tend to feel insecure even though the rest are at optimal.

Conclusion...

Happiness = To love and to be loved in return.

Because...

This is for you.

Dear Player,

I don't have any more cards left to play
Show me your hand and call it a day
Because the cards you play makes me daze
So please do as I say
and I will be on my way

- aa.

The road ahead is going to be a long and winding one...

Just another dumb post...

The emotions rages deep within me, destroying my self-constructed world. Is there no end to it ?
I feel helpless in the wake of the destruction it has caused.

Can emotions really be that bad ?

I just wanna detach myself from these emotions once awhile. Detach when it's bad and attach when it's good. That I can only wish. They can either make or destroy a person's life. Now i understand why the Institute Of Mental Health exists. I bet majority of the patients there got their mind screwed up by emotions. Sigh....

What I really want, at least for now is to be comfortably numb; refer to 1st Sept 08 post. I just want to be a mere mortal numb to feelings. I need to feel comfortable when numbness strikes. Because it will be a good thing during times of sadness/depression.....

Emotional suicide anyone ?

randomness

Everything happens for a reason. Bad or good. For better or for worst.

When things don't go our way we blame God. We blame our situation and are so narrow-minded towards it. What to do ? We are created this way. Created to see things in our own perspective.

Well shit happens and we got to live with it. But it's up to us to view it in a positive or cynical manner. I feel at times i'am more towards the latter...

Gosh, hate that feeling.