Simple pleasure.

Hello world. As of now the time is 2.30PM on a Tuesday. Let me emphasize 2.30PM and TUESDAY. Where would i be at this time on other weekdays? WORK! WERK! WURK! @ NUS! Slept super late last night, first time in 2 months. Shiok... Only one thing didn't go as plan. My sleep!! Slept at 230am woke up at 7am. Darn the body clock. Couldn't sleep for the next half hour. But oh well other then that it has been a great day so far. Woken up by the chirping of the birds together with a bright sunny morning. Stepped outside for a breather and for some stretching. Ahhh yes the serenity.... Beautiful day indeed.

After that whipped myself up for some good home-cooked lunch. 2 fried eggs, 2 pork bratwurst and fish fillet(sorry no pics). Eating lunch during the day in the comfort of my own home was simply delightful. Long time since that happened and the last time was again 2 months ago.

All in all the only down side to this whole thing is that it cost me 19bucks! Yes, i took a no pay leave and seriously it's worth it. Instead of running around, i'am at home rejuvenating.

Back to work tomorrow, goodbye solitude!

zzz...

i've an unfinished post about my internship... haha. will post in up sometime soon =)

hmmm, been super busy these few weeks... im really stretched and tired. in the process of expanding capacity. Hardly have time for myself... lets see my this week schedule after work...

Mon: Rest day

Tues: Celebrate birthday

Wed: Gym

Thurs: Cgc meeting

Fri: Cg

Sat: Ministry

Sun: Church

- Gosh hectic to the max! Previous and the next week are no better. Spending my time wisely now.

alright let me blog something that is abit annoying and amusing.

Today in the train on my way to work, i was stoning with my mp3. Then at some stop this girl came in and stood right next to me. That's normal and nothing out of the ordinary. But then she looked around and then looked at me. The first time, its alright. However, she did it repetitively! Pretending to look around then suddenly turn and look at me, could see that from the side of my eye. She was only standing less than a feet away on my side. I was thinking to myself, is there something on my face? So i looked at the reflection on the window but nothing. Ok, so feeling abit weird and annoyed. I played along with her. haha. After she looked at me, i would stare back at her. And when she's about to look at me again i look somewhere else.LOL. yea yea. paranoid la. oh wells. she was pretty anyways...XD whatever.

I'm seriously trapped in a dilemma. i really really hate this kind of scenarios. oh man. really didn't expected this to happen...

oh gosh, talking about the unexpected... I'm having this tiny infatuation feeling now which i don't like and don't want =\ sigh.

presenting my new toy!

Tenacity

Tenacity Tenacity Tenacity. Without tenacity, i'm just as good as a loser or a failure. And I've lost a few battles this year because of the lack of it. Right now i'm riding on my tenacity chasing my goals and results can be seen.

Here's a few....

Major Project.

Starting with basically ZERO knowledge and having huge obstacles along the way was seriously demoralizing, along with a group mate whom gave up too easily didn't help either. In the end, what can I do? I could only depend on God and myself only. Not to mention Mr.Google too. ha. Been cracking my brain doing what seemed impossible only to achieve it at the end. It's situations like this that really amazes me; my capabilities and my potential. Sometimes, the problem with me is that I give up after assessing the difficulty of the situation. But whenever i try and take that leap of faith, i find myself never looking back. Tend to focus on the negative rather on the success, how pessimistic of me. However somehow or rather i know i will eventually get to my destination and even if i fall, He will be there to catch me.

Ministry.

Initially this year, i wanted to quit for a fresh change. I felt things were getting no where and i was serving out of obligation. A change of environment was necessary because i've lost the drive. But i thought to myself that i haven't even achieved what i wanted to achieve in ministry and by quitting it shows that i give up too easily. Moreover, when i change ministry and i hit this dry point again; i will simply quit/run away. And by running away, i'm being selfish due to the fact that it affects my team. So i made my choice, i'm gonna renew my mindset and stand my ground. Yea yea, it may be boring and mundane at times but remaining faithful is the key. Sometimes it's through those mundane things that we are tested on.

*Note to self, faithful in the little things and i can be entrusted with much.

thanks to my IC for waking me up.

The result? I'm much more happier serving now. Things dosen't seem to be as dull as before.

quick update, i injured my toe nail and it's all blackish. I hope it does not develop into gangrene!!! ahhhh. must stop being paranoid

Oh yea lastly, i find this album art nice!

friendship...

After all we've been through, it has come to this. I actually thought i was the one that needed to change for the friendship to work. But infact, i've come to realize that the problem lies with you. I've been there for you when you were in trouble, listening to your problems while your close group of friends did'nt care. Heck, i even prayed for you... I wont deny the fact that you also did helped me in times of peril. But the way i see you treat your other friends and me is totally different. You look at them as your brothers and how bout me? very disappointing... the all famous verse... "And why do you look at the speck in your brother’s eye, but do not consider the plank in your own eye?"

Why can't you understand what i did to you was right. Yes, i know you had problems with your work and was desperate for help. But the thing is i helped you too much already, you were starting to depend on me to solve all your problems. So i had to take a step back and let you swim by yourself in order for you to learn. Moreover, you had the audacity to tell me you wanted an A grade for it. Even if you do get an A, would you even feel justified? So because of this our relationship is strained, and i bet i'm wrong in your eyes for not helping you. Seriously, ask the rest of our friends... they 100% agree with me.

You really ought to open up your eyes and see whom your true friends are. Look beyond the words and at the sincerity and the sacrifice they did for you. We do have our flaws, but at the end of the day iron sharpens iron no? And that will make our friendship even stronger because what we say and do have an impact in our life.

Bottom line is that i accept you the way you are, together with all your flaws and all. But what i really hate is your attitude and mindset towards our friendship. That's what i can't accept. If that isn't there, then the friendship is just based on superficial means. This is what i perceive things to be, so if it isn't true... prove me wrong... well if you still want things to work out of course.

*EDIT

I wish you bon voyage. the friendship is seriously tainted. FYI, i don't regret those sacrifices WE did for you. at last we see your true colors and the way u treat our friendship.