happiness is

happiness happiness happiness.

Sometimes i feel irritated when people tell me that they are not happy for some "stupid" reasons.

Reasons such as.. I'll only be happy if i'm rich or if i get good results or if i get attached to this girl.

Let's say they achieved those objectives and they are happy.

But that happiness is just temporarily, they will come back and whine about another thing.

EG. I'm attached to the girl of my dreams but i'm poor, i don't deserve her so i'm sad.

I mean come on, i will be like WHAT?!

Why must we all(me included) succumb ourselves to conditions in order to be happy.

Why can't we just go about enjoying unconditional happiness?

Yes i know we are human, so it's normal to be sad and whine.

But to an extent that it's always the same set of problems and never seem to move on.

Can't we all be contented with what we have and stop crying on what we don't have?

I like this phrase " Happiness is always here, but covered by thoughts, desires and fears"

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I now believe that happiness is a state of the mind and joy is a state of the heart.

Think about that.

What a year!

It's already end of the year... how time flies.

Gosh, many things happened this year, and i must say i've gained much.

Through things such as relationship, friends, family etc...

Felt as though i became more matured in my thinking.

Handling heartache after heartache and disappointment after disappointment.

If i were to watch my life on a big movie screen and i in the audiences seat.

I would truly be amazed...

In times of cowardliness, i would just hurl popcorns at the screen.

In times of success, i would give a standing ovation.

In times of failure, i would sympathize.

In times of sadness, i will just cry along.

So at the end, how would i rate my life movie for 2009?

I'll give it a 4/5 stars rating.

Why?

Basically it has been a fruitful year.

I have stepped out of my comfort zone many times in the pursuit of improving.

I'm much more expressive and open compared to beginning of the year.

Situation changes people, and the outcome is determined by the thinking.

Thus, in whatever situation, my view on it will be positive and not otherwise.

I see the glass as half full and not half empty.

So with these experiences gained i march towards the new year with boldness.

Just like a 'veteran' soldier eager to venture into unknown territory for war.

logic vs emotion

I'm seriously in a match of logic vs emotion right now. Emotions wants to go ahead but logic tells me otherwise. So im trapped in this dilemma and it's killing me. I usually use logic with emotions and not other-way around. my emotions are so strong now that is driving my logical sensory nuts. why oh why must that feeling be rekindled

"Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end?"

Simple pleasure.

Hello world. As of now the time is 2.30PM on a Tuesday. Let me emphasize 2.30PM and TUESDAY. Where would i be at this time on other weekdays? WORK! WERK! WURK! @ NUS! Slept super late last night, first time in 2 months. Shiok... Only one thing didn't go as plan. My sleep!! Slept at 230am woke up at 7am. Darn the body clock. Couldn't sleep for the next half hour. But oh well other then that it has been a great day so far. Woken up by the chirping of the birds together with a bright sunny morning. Stepped outside for a breather and for some stretching. Ahhh yes the serenity.... Beautiful day indeed.

After that whipped myself up for some good home-cooked lunch. 2 fried eggs, 2 pork bratwurst and fish fillet(sorry no pics). Eating lunch during the day in the comfort of my own home was simply delightful. Long time since that happened and the last time was again 2 months ago.

All in all the only down side to this whole thing is that it cost me 19bucks! Yes, i took a no pay leave and seriously it's worth it. Instead of running around, i'am at home rejuvenating.

Back to work tomorrow, goodbye solitude!

zzz...

i've an unfinished post about my internship... haha. will post in up sometime soon =)

hmmm, been super busy these few weeks... im really stretched and tired. in the process of expanding capacity. Hardly have time for myself... lets see my this week schedule after work...

Mon: Rest day

Tues: Celebrate birthday

Wed: Gym

Thurs: Cgc meeting

Fri: Cg

Sat: Ministry

Sun: Church

- Gosh hectic to the max! Previous and the next week are no better. Spending my time wisely now.

alright let me blog something that is abit annoying and amusing.

Today in the train on my way to work, i was stoning with my mp3. Then at some stop this girl came in and stood right next to me. That's normal and nothing out of the ordinary. But then she looked around and then looked at me. The first time, its alright. However, she did it repetitively! Pretending to look around then suddenly turn and look at me, could see that from the side of my eye. She was only standing less than a feet away on my side. I was thinking to myself, is there something on my face? So i looked at the reflection on the window but nothing. Ok, so feeling abit weird and annoyed. I played along with her. haha. After she looked at me, i would stare back at her. And when she's about to look at me again i look somewhere else.LOL. yea yea. paranoid la. oh wells. she was pretty anyways...XD whatever.

I'm seriously trapped in a dilemma. i really really hate this kind of scenarios. oh man. really didn't expected this to happen...